And so it begins (And let’s be honest, it’s been happening since Sept. 28th 2012)

Topic : Daily Glimpses

So here’s the deal.

I’m having a hard time with Clarabelle growing up.

big smile at around 5 weeks

I really thought I would handle this whole “mom” thing with much more calm (although really, I have NO idea why I would think that as I’m not really “calm” in life).

this is calm, I am not so calm

In the past month CBJ has started crawling, “eating”, and breast feeding less.


What is that?

I mean, I KNEW it would happen but not all in a month!

And I AM proud of her for developing and growing and smiling at me and being SO STINKING CUTE.


But where is my little baby?

Fresh baby, notice the cheeks. 🙂

The one who nursed ALL day long (which at the time was hard but now I don’t know what to do if she’s not wanting a boob!).

Where’s the baby I could prop (very safely) on the bed while I blow dried my hair?

Where is the little biscuit who slept in that glorious Rock -N- Play?

Well…she’s still here of course.



And she’s crawling and babbling.

serious stretch

Wanting to drink from my glass.

She’s nursing but not as often (which makes my heart ache but let’s get real…she’s still very into the boobs).

There’s no hope of propping her anywhere as she can move like no other when she sees something she wants!

Watching her grow is bittersweet.
And it has been for some time.

I’m trying to roll with it and some days I cry.

And all days I smile.

I didn’t realize that when you have a child you teach them but man, do they teach you.

And there’s nothing to say other than that this is hard for me, I’m just putting it out there in case you’re a mom like me, who cries some times through her proud smile.


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  • Meghann Parson August 27, 2014

    Emma, I have the same problem with Tess who is not quite 22 months. Still nursing and sometimes refuses to eat. We add raw sprouted protein to her smoothies. Not a huge amount but just a little. She will almost always eat eggs, pancakes and bacon (I'd very easily be ovolactovegetarian but Daddy is a meat eater) or eggs, guacamole, Brown rice and black beans. Or avocado. Those are my only two "go to" meals. And carbs. She'll eat cookies or crackers for days. Glad the doctor was supportive, I've been thinking about going there as well. I'm sick of the weaning conversation.

    • ReplyEmma August 27, 2014

      Scrambled eggs are a hit so I'm going to keep offering, avocado too.. I was impressed by Little Flower, it is so refreshing to be in a place that supports breastfeeding. Not a formula pamphlet in the place. And applause for continuing to breastfeed? Makes me want to go daily! It's far by driving standards (least from our house) but worth it to be able to not get hassled about parenting choices.

  • Bethany May 14, 2014

    Good job, mama!

    • ReplyEmma May 15, 2014

      :) thank you friend!

  • Lara October 18, 2013

    Wow, I'm so glad we aren't the only ones who have gone through all these ups and downs with nursing. G is still nursing strong at 14.5 months. There were times when I swore he was weaning himself (8/9 months, and I cried and cried), and nowadays lately he nurses like a newborn. Some days I have so much milk that I'm still spurting and needing nursing pads, other days I think he looks at me like, "Turn it on, mama!" I think the lesson after we have put all this time in it should be: our babies and our bodies know what to do! :)

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