And so it begins (And let’s be honest, it’s been happening since Sept. 28th 2012)
Topic : Daily Glimpses
So here’s the deal.
I’m having a hard time with Clarabelle growing up.
|big smile at around 5 weeks|
I really thought I would handle this whole “mom” thing with much more calm (although really, I have NO idea why I would think that as I’m not really “calm” in life).
|this is calm, I am not so calm|
In the past month CBJ has started crawling, “eating”, and breast feeding less.
What is that?
I mean, I KNEW it would happen but not all in a month!
And I AM proud of her for developing and growing and smiling at me and being SO STINKING CUTE.
But where is my little baby?
|Fresh baby, notice the cheeks. 🙂|
The one who nursed ALL day long (which at the time was hard but now I don’t know what to do if she’s not wanting a boob!).
Where’s the baby I could prop (very safely) on the bed while I blow dried my hair?
Where is the little biscuit who slept in that glorious Rock -N- Play?
Well…she’s still here of course.
And she’s crawling and babbling.
Wanting to drink from my glass.
She’s nursing but not as often (which makes my heart ache but let’s get real…she’s still very into the boobs).
There’s no hope of propping her anywhere as she can move like no other when she sees something she wants!
Watching her grow is bittersweet.
And it has been for some time.
I’m trying to roll with it and some days I cry.
And all days I smile.
I didn’t realize that when you have a child you teach them but man, do they teach you.
And there’s nothing to say other than that this is hard for me, I’m just putting it out there in case you’re a mom like me, who cries some times through her proud smile.